Have just finished another book by Kurt Tucholsky, a famous pacifist. One of his most famous quotes: “All soldiers are murders” got an antimilitarist in Germany into court, as the government considered it to be slander. Anyway, the governement lost, but that does not hinder the German government to stop being keen to be involved in wars. But thanks to the constitution, there are a lot of hurdles, so it will take at least a decade till German soldiers are involved in militarist, especially fighting actions around the world (where they clearly should stay at home!) Anyway Kurt Tucholsky killed himself in 1935, and many of his writings are famous,but neglected, so when the Tucholsky book was bought in October, the bookshop owner told this is the first Tucholsky book in the year 2004 to be sold.

My community is consulting about re-structuring local self-organisation. There are 3 choices: either community councils, neighbourhood groups or no structures. I am unsure which structural option would be the best for the local community, but it seems that, whatever, the momentarily exsisting structures will be abolished; all three models don’t have a local councillor anymore and the “quengo” which distributed money, funds and grants will be apparantly abolished, too. On the other hand our local community is in various parts, and each part seems to be divided of the other by high fences or walls. The kids go to seperate schools, and the posher parts keep themselves together, as well as do the poorer parts, there is not much interaction.

Today. I have watched some of the new films I got at the London Anarchist Bookfair and in Germany. The German video CD- which after some trials and begging finally was played on the DVD player was surprisingly good for a historical film about Anarchosyndicalism. Not too dry, quite informative and with a little bit of fun. I’ll try to make a copy and send it on to Projectile, the anarchist film festival in Newcastle, which will be running in February. Afterwards I watched the “This is what democracy looks like” video made by Big Noise Tactical and Seattle Indymedia about the Seattle anti-WTO protests in 1999.

An ordinary life is boring and not for me. Just can’t let go of anti-capitalist politics. There just seems to be no dignified alternative to opposing capitalism. Even though the main problems, on how bad humans treat each other most of the time,is not just rooted in capitalism. Maybe capitalism often provides the obvious reasons and excuses given, but the might have anybody ever thought that the reasons and excuses given could not *just* be capitalist decisions? For example, the exclusion of the 2 fellow activists out of the political space in London has as just nothing to do with capitalism.

Today was more or less a lazy day. My computer has been taken apart the rest of last week, and is slowly getting together again. When it is finished then hopefully there will be enough harddisk space to start editing videos. Asking around because of the Sky TV offer, some people in the video have blocked the sale of footage, which is totally understandable. As well as there is a big danger that they’d make something totally hostile to grassroot activism out of it, even though the guy was once working at undercurrents. The main argument though was (slightly or more or less exaggerated), that Rupert Murdoch is so hostile to workers organisation in trade unions, that we can’t expect SkyTV to make a sympathetic film about us!