Today, whilst volunteering, a man ran into the cafe I was in for lunch with a bundle. It was a baby and it had stopped breathing. It was already blue and his eyes were bloodshot red. It wasn’t that old, it did not even have teeth yet, and was quite small. We tried to revive that little girl, but we did not seem to have success. the ambulance took ages, the man (savior) nearly collapsed into a shock, too. He did CPR whilst luckily enough a nurse was in the cafe, too, she did mouth to mouth whilst i tried to find the pulse.

I am on some work experience now – for a charity with the prospect of a proper job, maybe; luckily it is only part-time so far, because it really is quite stressful having some work and a strain to anti-capitalist activities. So far I could quite well keep up with it just by working quicker, more focused and spending less time on the Internet nor in front of the television. but have agreed to host at least 4 workshops in the forthcoming weeks and really need to sort out events, publicity and similar. However, it is now really annoying when I plan to stay in to wait for something like plumber/parcel delivery/electrician and they just don’t come at all, or at totally different times.

“Nothing is more difficult and nothing requires more character than to find oneself in open opposition to one’s time and to say loudly: NO! .” Kurt TUCHOLSKY Germany, 1933 German political satirist and journalist (1890-1935) I am trying to find Tucholsky’s text about the politician and his conscience; it goes like that: at first he is proud of it and shows it off, then he makes more an more compromises and put it away in his handbag, then he leaves it on his desk, then in the shelf on show, and, at last he is hiding it behind and under all his books in the cupboard.

My god, this last week was smashing. Never before in my life I have had such a week, turning over my life perception and attitude again. I am still too exhausted really to digest it and write about, and when coming home, there is seldom time enough to go over everything again and to work through it, as well as there are mostly not the mates around who shared the same experience with you, who could REALLY talk everything through with you and understand and critisise precisely. Well, one good thing I know in a way now, that there is some kind of weird crazy courage inside of me – I always thought I would be a scary useless whimp really, and still no clue when this stupid bravery thing pops its nose out when I’d be actually closer to pissing myself, but fact is, it does exist, I know it now.

It is still in discussion what happened when where and why and by whom concerning the ahimsa hard disks. new updates suggest the France/Imc Nantes connection as maybe not the main factor, apparantly their lawyer hadn’t got the necessary documents together yet. Another suggestion is that it could be connected still with Diebold against Indymedia on behalf of the electronic voting machines being suspected of enabling electoral fraud. Updates via: http://docs.indymedia.org/view/Global/WhoTookAhimsa