My god, this last week was smashing. Never before in my life I have had such a week, turning over my life perception and attitude again. I am still too exhausted really to digest it and write about, and when coming home, there is seldom time enough to go over everything again and to work through it, as well as there are mostly not the mates around who shared the same experience with you, who could REALLY talk everything through with you and understand and critisise precisely.
Well, one good thing I know in a way now, that there is some kind of weird crazy courage inside of me – I always thought I would be a scary useless whimp really, and still no clue when this stupid bravery thing pops its nose out when I’d be actually closer to pissing myself, but fact is, it does exist, I know it now.